i'm so drained. this week have been so trying and yet... i've survived. physics spa on monday, chem lecture test on tues, ki common test on wed and to top it all off as number 1 priority on the list, a tempo at the end of the week. the week started off like hell. impending doom of so many sources of stress brought in an anxiety that was so difficult to bear. ticket sales, which troubled me the most was still horrendous. but i crossed that hurdle. monday was over... the physics spa satisfactorily done. Thank God.
tues arrived. while physics spa was over, ticket sales were still slow and panic was crawling in. one more day closer to the concert! sent out a desperate plea asking ppl to sell tickets... how effective it was i have no idea. sales did improve but the stacks were still scarily big. thankfully, the lecture test wasn't difficult. one worry to strike off.wed gave me a huge sense of satisfaction. finally, sales were moving. stacks were substantially reduced and ki ct was over!!! yea it might have been hard but lolz if everyone says its hard then not much to worry about i guess. didn't have the feeling of screwing up anyway so definitely a huge rock off the shoulders. i reached home feeling really relieved.
and today. i skipped school today to get gifts. again, sense of accomplishment :) everything for the concert was settled by today. sat tickets sold out, and friday tickets left only a few. table orders are all settled and i got into the car home feeling drained, but peaceful.and that narrative was for the week.
and bad news struck. not that bad... just really irritating. being edgy, i flared. so why can't i be given leeway? i'm not allowed to have bad days? after things settled, the bad news didn't remain but the sarcasm and the scathing comments did. they robbed me of my peace. why can't i just rant and rave like i want to. very tired and drained. ppl nagging forever. so amazing that my peace can be robbed away singularly, leaving just my tiredness even tho they came together. i started the day feeling really thankful. but i got hurled another trial. give me a break it's quite enough.
its sooooo emo it reeks of angst. i'm digusted too. but angst needs energy and i'm just tired. pent up stuff need an outlet and i hardly wanna risk a retort. things like this are momentous after all. it's not everyday u get a week like this. how eventful. i wanna sleep but i'm just drily thinking of tmr. it'd be called 'worrying' except there's no emotional attachment. shall watch shuang tian zhi zhun. amazing clear enough to realize the incoherence of the post. but it's more for me than for u anyway. lazy to write it in a personal diary.
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
i'm so drained. this week have been so trying and yet... i've survived. physics spa on monday, chem lecture test on tues, ki common test on wed and to top it all off as number 1 priority on the list, a tempo at the end of the week. the week started off like hell. impending doom of so many sources of stress brought in an anxiety that was so difficult to bear. ticket sales, which troubled me the most was still horrendous. but i crossed that hurdle. monday was over... the physics spa satisfactorily done. Thank God.
tues arrived. while physics spa was over, ticket sales were still slow and panic was crawling in. one more day closer to the concert! sent out a desperate plea asking ppl to sell tickets... how effective it was i have no idea. sales did improve but the stacks were still scarily big. thankfully, the lecture test wasn't difficult. one worry to strike off.wed gave me a huge sense of satisfaction. finally, sales were moving. stacks were substantially reduced and ki ct was over!!! yea it might have been hard but lolz if everyone says its hard then not much to worry about i guess. didn't have the feeling of screwing up anyway so definitely a huge rock off the shoulders. i reached home feeling really relieved.
and today. i skipped school today to get gifts. again, sense of accomplishment :) everything for the concert was settled by today. sat tickets sold out, and friday tickets left only a few. table orders are all settled and i got into the car home feeling drained, but peaceful.and that narrative was for the week.
and bad news struck. not that bad... just really irritating. being edgy, i flared. so why can't i be given leeway? i'm not allowed to have bad days? after things settled, the bad news didn't remain but the sarcasm and the scathing comments did. they robbed me of my peace. why can't i just rant and rave like i want to. very tired and drained. ppl nagging forever. so amazing that my peace can be robbed away singularly, leaving just my tiredness even tho they came together. i started the day feeling really thankful. but i got hurled another trial. give me a break it's quite enough.
its sooooo emo it reeks of angst. i'm digusted too. but angst needs energy and i'm just tired. pent up stuff need an outlet and i hardly wanna risk a retort. things like this are momentous after all. it's not everyday u get a week like this. how eventful. i wanna sleep but i'm just drily thinking of tmr. it'd be called 'worrying' except there's no emotional attachment. shall watch shuang tian zhi zhun. amazing clear enough to realize the incoherence of the post. but it's more for me than for u anyway. lazy to write it in a personal diary.